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This probabaly sounds like a set back but after finally facing the scale last weekend, I got back on the wagon somewhat.  Although I wasn’t following a plan for healthy eating like I plan to going forward, I did break away a bit from the massive, out of control eating I was doing and maintained my weight for the week.  I’m happy with that and am planning some healthy meals for next weeek so I can start the New Year off having in a better mind set to hit the ground running now. 

Every January for many years now, I usually make a cut off day in the New Year and go from 100 to 0…totally out of control eating to salads & water.  I’m not doing that this year.  I’m easing myself into it and am going to incorporate a few healthier meals, portion control and stepping up the exercise a bit.  I’m trying to not get so wigged out about being “perfect” and 100% all the time.  My goal is to eat healthier and incorporate those good habits into my life for good rather than “going on a diet” for 3 months and then going off it. 

Is anyone else approaching the New Year this way?  Or are most of you doing everything hard core and hoping for the best?

I’m slowing working my way back to “normal” eating again since I finally weighed in for the first time since April.  I don’t feel nearly as out of control as I’ve been which is a great feeling.  Although I’m not totally eating healthy like I would like to, I’m WAY better than I was a week ago.  I’m drinking more water, eating some vegetables and smaller meals and just staying away from the candy and sweets.  I feel much better already and think my system was way out of whack from  my bingeing.  Hope to get more inspiration from you out there on these blogs to continue to build on good eating habits and elimiate the bad. 

I’m trying to find some tips and tricks for filling out the food journal.  I’ve added in some common meals that I eat but I struggle with how to put in foods that are made from home.  I.E., I just had some broccoli stir fried w/pineapple and few peanuts and soy sauce.  I’d like to be able to put in just an estimated calorie amount for the meal.  I know it may not be accurate as far as getting the protein/fat/carb ratio correct, but I’m more concerned at this point with total calories. 

 Is anyone struggling with this?  I’d really like to use this tool but I find it a little frustrating. 

Well, thanks to the great feedback to a prior post, I bought a scale for a Christmas present to me (actually to me, my son and my boyfriend) since we all need to get back in shape.  After having the scale sit in our bedroom for a couple of days and having a seriously out of control day yesterday, I decided to make Saturday morning my weigh in day and just go for it. 

 I pulled out that scale this morning and registered 211.6.  I’m horrified, since that is the highest weight I have been at for a few years.  But mostly, I’m incredibly RELIEVED!  I finally faced the music and now can be honest about my weight loss now and put up my weight tracker.  I think I was so stressed out about what that number would be and just the act of facing it, that I was overeating to take my mind off of it. 

If anyone is struggling with getting on that scale, please just do it.  Worrying about what that number COULD be, thinking that the numbers are so high that you can’t face them and that it will send you into a binge, was holding me back.  I can’t say I’m totally in diet mode as I write this, but I sure feel a whole lot better than I did yesterday and certainly do feel like eating healthier. 

I pulled out my last Weight Watcher card and my last weigh in was 4/12/08 and I weight 200.2 lbs.  My lowest was 192 and my highest weight was 228.  Not where I want to be for sure, but probably less than I would weigh in another week had I kept going on the same path. 

I’m going to add in my weight tracker line and see what happens! 

I think I’ve finally reached my breaking point.  I cannot feel any more stuffed, grossed-out and disgusted with myself!  I cannot seem to get out of my holiday binging mode that started last weekend when I decided to make my all time favorite Magic Bars.  Yep, just had to make them!  My son and I ate TWO batches of them and I’ve been on a continuous binge ever since.  Went to Burger King today.  Had a chocolate bar and just totally OUT OF CONTROL. 

 Is anyone else feeling this way?  What are you doing to break the binge cycle and get back on track????

This probably sounds like a stupid question but when I’ve seriously followed a weight plan, it was always Weight Watchers so I’ve not owned a scale in years.  Do you all have your own scale and do you follow a weekly weigh in on a certain day?  Just curious how you all keep track and if you follow a schedule for weighing in regardless of how you did during the week.  I know for me, on weeks where I did not do well on my plan, I would sometimes skip the weekly meeting and weigh in. 

 Any suggestions for a good scale? 

Well, I actually had a pretty good day food-wise.  I stayed on my own plan - low fat, small portions, all day until the end of the work day.  I spied a tin of chocolate covered pretzels that a vendor had sent us at work and snuck a handful.  Then, my family ordered Chinese food for dinner and asked me to pick it up on the way home.  No problem.  I had planned on having left over pork roast and veg’s for dinner so I was all set and would stick with my plan  Until….

 I smelled those darn CRAB RANGOON”s!  Why did he have to order those???  OMG, when I got that bag of food in my car, I could not get home fast enough to eat one (or two).  I only ate two, which is actually pretty good for me as I normally would have had about 6, plus a helping of whatever other chinese food they got.  So I stuck to my plan for dinner and although I ate two Crab Rangoon’s, overall I’m pretty happy with my day.  Not the best day but much better than my “bag-o-truffles” and McD’s from yesterday.

 Thanks for the kind words of encouragement and welcome.  That was so awesome to have emails waiting for me at work.  This website is really fun and I hope to explore it some more going forward.

I stumbled across this website today and it looked great.  I’m burned out from doing Weight Watchers — been doing that since I was 12 and I’m nearly 45 now.  I’ve struggled with my weight for years.  Never actually having been “thin”.  Although when I look back at pictures of myself when I was in grade school and even in high school, I’d LOVE to be that thin again!  I’m determined to NOT face another year being fat and so I figured I would try this blog and see if it inspires me or triggers something in me to move in the right direction.  This economy, my weight and the stress of a new job is really making me on edge.  I can tell because I want to do ANYTHING but face my challenges, yet that’s all I think of.  I’m shopping, watching TV and basically doing anything to avoid those scary first steps of getting on program.  I’m afraid of failing for the umpteenth time but is past failure and guarantee of future failure? 

Maybe there is something to this blogging thing.  I know what to do, I know what to eat.  I get that.  So something else must be work here.  Something else is keeping me from succeeding.  Maybe this blog will help me find that.  I would like to write down my feelings each day in this blog…diet or no diet.  I need to get to the root of what is going on.  I need to write down my feelings regardless of how I am doing on my diet plan.  Whether I disappoint myself or have a great day, I need to write down my thoughts.  Maybe there is a pattern.  Maybe I’ll discover the key.  That one missing component that helps me move through this journey. 

My day today: 

I had the day off from work.  It actually was a long weekend for me as I took off Friday too.  It is great to have a long weekend but sometimes it is way too much time on my hands.  Unless I have a home decorating project or something that really keeps me busy and focused, I tend to get into trouble.  I’m totally into McDonalds cheeseburger kids meals. lately.  I had one last Friday for lunch and I think I had one on Saturday too.  I then had another one today.  I can’t get enough and keep craving them when I am out and about.  I don’t eat fast food very much ever but for the past few weeks I’ve had a few other McD’s kids meals too (probably 7 times in the last month).  Isn’t that wacky?  Does anyone else have these weird cravings or fixes? 

 Another really out of character thing that I did today was I went to Walmart and bought a bag of those yummy truffles.  I forgot the name of them but there were about 10 to 12 in the bag.  The first one was AWESOME!  Each one thereafter was less delicious and by the time I had all but 2 eaten, I was sick to my stomach and felt really bad that I ate those.  Again, pretty out of character for me as I have not done a binge of candy in a very long time.  Hopefully I will not have an episode like this again for another very long time. 

I have to run.  I’m making a crockpot pork roast dinner, which smells yummy right now.   Will I be able to keep up the blogging each day?  We’ll see.  I do know I will be back!  More to come…

I told you I was new to blogging….didn’t realize until I saw this posted that I seemed to be screaming in my headline (all caps).  Am changing the regular type!